Hey, How Are You? (01/2025)

Hey. 

I’ve been thinking about you, 

Could you feel it? 

Your silence was always such a depressing answer. 

One sigh could take the world away and I'd finally feel awake. 

I’m still lonely if you ever wondered how I was doing. 

Some things never heal. 

Some people have to carry burdens they can’t show the world. 

Some people never lived the way a kid should’ve. 

Some things never change. 

I think i’m sick of acting like everything is ok. 

I don’t remember the last time I cried. 

I’ve watched the light fade in people’s eyes,

And every time, I could see myself so clearly. 

When can I forget?

I know everyone else has. 

I bring up life back then and people ask me, 

“You still remember that?”

Of course I do, I’m still there, alone, and against my will. 

I just want to sleep at night knowing someone is here who knows how it all feels. 

Reality hurts and I can’t lie, 

My expectations have become all I wait for. 

My shadowed essence falls, draped over my mass, 

I think it may be time to take off my cloak and show the world my scars. 

If I had you by my side I worry that the pressure wouldn’t actually cease. 

Is that ok? 

Am I ok? 

No. 

And I never was. 

I’ve watched the world run from Space nearly my entire life. 

I used to wonder if I could fall back down to Earth.

But it’s not my place anymore. 

It’s ok, don’t worry about me,

I don’t mind watching you grow old without me, 

Honestly, I just hope I don’t freeze.